Regarding physical appearance

I've never lived a life satisfied with my appearance, but I've lived for decades thinking I had no flaws.
 I never felt the need for plastic surgery, but at some point, I realized that I was obsessed with my appearance (I've never had plastic surgery yet) and
 I found someone I liked . But he doesn't like me. When I hear that person and his friends say that they have no intention of dating someone unless they are a certain female celebrity,
 I thought to myself, “If you’re not at that level, then what do you want?” I would have given up and ignored this person, but because I like this person so much, I compare myself to that certain celebrity, find my flaws, and cry every day.
 Of course, that celebrity was born differently, but I spent a lot of money on treatment, treatment, and surgery. Since I'm doing it, of course it's different from me, but I have acquaintances in the entertainment field and know that life better than anyone else, so I keep comparing myself to myself and wondering if that person would like me if I looked like that, and then I book a plastic surgery consultation and look up reviews... ^^
 I haven't scheduled a surgery date yet, but I hope I feel better before then.
 Even if I get plastic surgery, it's a plastic surgery I'm trying to satisfy myself. I don't even want to try to please others... It's not working out as I thought.