I'm in my late 40s, but
 I've suffered from social phobia due to facial asymmetry my whole life, and the
 pain goes beyond stress.
 I've never been able to rest because I'm so busy working and making a living, but
 now I feel like I can take some time off
 and try my lifelong dream of doing orthodoxy,
 but I feel like I'm lacking muscle mass overall
due to lack of exercise.
 They say it's worse than the pain of giving birth due to
 poor physical fitness,
 but I'm trying to muster up the courage to do it.
 Please give me your opinion.