First of all, I can't concentrate on studying. At school, I just look in the mirror and put on double eyelids, and during break time, I go into the bathroom stall and watch my face with the rear camera video, and I don't have the motivation to study. I just analyze my eyes that are completely open and do simulations thinking that I'll fail again and live a bad life.
 And when I see pretty kids, I don't feel inferior, I just feel helpless? If only my face were pretty like theirs, I wouldn't be obsessed with things like my face and would study hard and fulfill my duty as a student. I have these thoughts.
 And I'm looking into plastic surgery procedures right now. I'm just treating them like a legend... Ha, I don't think it'll get any better, so I feel so sorry to my parents.
 I've been told that I'm ugly since middle school, so it's just so hard. These days, if I touch something, it feels like it's going to explode. What's with that damn face?