It seemed like a mistake to think that I could change my normal nose into a small, narrow, and sharp nose. As I endlessly watched pretty girls on Instagram, I thought that the beauty I was pursuing didn't come out because my nose was ugly. I vaguely thought that if I had a nose surgery, the reality of beauty would come out at the same time. But I'm just here, I'm not getting any prettier, I just have a nose. It's sad that I've become someone who has grown up and had plastic surgery. Before the surgery, I was excited, excited, and thrilled by the vague, idealistic fantasy I had created, but the aftertaste was bitter. There is nothing wrong with surgery. I think the director did the best he could. So, someone might say that I am full. But like a fanatic who believes I will go to heaven, I desperately and desperately believed that beauty would follow as much as I embraced it. If the surgery was successful, there was no doubt that the result would be that she would become prettier. Now, several months have passed since those days, and that feeling is slowly fading away, and my crazy belief is cracking. Now that I know that the swelling has gone down a bit, I can't deny that this is my face. I'm not pretty like the girls on Instagram and my nose just keeps getting bigger. That pretty ‘feeling’ that I longed for, which I didn’t have, was not something that could be expressed through my body. I don't know what I can do now, and I don't want to, so I think it would be better to get plastic surgery. I was feeling depressed so I wrote down some complaints, but I hope that if anyone sees it, they will think about it calmly once more. It’s even more bittersweet to hear that I’m leaving like this haha..
음... 그래도 위로해주고 싶어서 말하자면
주변 사례를 보면 큰 코&복코는 두번, 세번 하다보면 예쁘게 나오는데 작은 코는 크게 만들수가 없어..피부가 부족해서 차근차근 늘려도 한계가 있고 억지로 높혀도 휘거나 코끝 비치거나 난리남.. ㅋㅋ 희망을 가져.. 큰 코는 줄일 수는 있어.. (돈과 시간만 있다면..)
많이 공감되는 글이다 나도 최근에 돌출입수술을 했는데 의사도 간호사도 드라마틱하게 될거라고 ... 하지만 글쓴이처럼 입만 들어간 그이상도이하도 아니네^^.. 그래서 피같은 돈쓰고 여러가지를 잃은 기분이 든다 아름다움에 집착해서 도전하듯 하게된 큰수술인데 주사바늘하나도 그리 두려워하면서... 그렇게 용기내어 한 수술은 오히려 내게 절망과 후회와 아픔을 주고 있어 시간이 흐르고 만족할지 어떨지 모르겠지만 사람이 무언가 집착한다는거 참 무서운 것 같다는 생각이 드네 특히나 성형에 있어서는.
성형 수술 하고 느낀건데 아주 씁쓸하지만
특정 부분만 고친다고 뿅 이뻐지는게 아니라 조화가 중요함을 느끼고 누군가는 하나만 고쳐도 이뻐지고 조화가 대부분 잘 되어있어서, 누군가는 열에 아홉은 고쳐야 이뻐지고 그런거 아닌가 싶다..