I feel like I'm going crazy with anxiety. Why is it making noise? I made incisions in the mouth and sideburns and fixed them front and back, but it still makes a sound. It seemed to be getting better for a week, but now I'm making noise again. It's dripping when I swallow, it's dripping when I'm talking, and it's dripping when I'm lying down. I think there's something wrong with it. Fuck. Why did I have this surgery?? Even if I want to die, I can’t. There will be more days to live, so what should I do? What should I do if my parents find out that I'm doing something wrong? They'll be heartbroken, so what should I do... What should I do...