Double-handed release surgery

I had surgery a year ago. I had an eye surgery that I didn't want, so I had it removed. I had it done twice at that hospital. The first time I had it removed, I got inflammation on one side, so I had to wait about six months and have surgery again. Now, other than my eye being slightly closed, I'm satisfied. It's bigger than it used to be. Maybe it's because the eyelids were incised! I also removed the silicone from my nose today haha. I want to go back to being a natural person . I don't close my eyes because I think it will get better as I get older and my eyelids become thinner haha.