I took off the bottom hem

The doctor who had the back canthoplasty and lower canthoplasty about 8 years ago had my eyes glued back together, so I underwent another operation . They say it will come up in months, but since I've experienced it, I know that it takes a long time, so it's not easy to wait. The ghost-like eyes are disgusting, so after a conflict, after 3 weeks, I untied the lower canopy . I hope only the canthoplasty healed properly, but I'm worried... It's a bit uneven on one side and both sides show red flesh . I've never been like this before, but to be honest, it's too big. After that, I was so upset and I hid it from my family, but eventually found out . The lower canthoplasty surgery is simple, but I'm worried that it will be smaller than the original eye . Ha, I'm already thinking about reconstruction and looking into it. It seems that this could happen if you're unlucky in the hospital that originally fit you well. Is it my fault for being greedy? I can't even go to work and I just want to hang myself