Postoperative depression. help.

My life has changed a lot, a lot. If I could go back to a year ago, it would be nice if there was a way to do that, but I spent several months thinking about dying at the age of 22 due to useless surgery while hearing that I was pretty . my eyes. It's not that my eyes don't open or close. However, it looks so unnatural and the impression has changed wildly. Maybe it's because my skin is too thick, or the structure of my eyes is strange, but the eyes that fold too darkly are burdensome, so it's hard to even look in the mirror. What's even more painful is that the surgery was initially done at the recommendation of my parents, and since the hospital is a place where my parents' acquaintances are doing it, there's no place for me to confide in what I'm suffering from because I don't like it . My parents don't understand me and tell me to stop talking to the hospital. But it's really not like that... If I could go back to the past, I would do anything, but is there really no way? I cry every day, I have no place to confide in and I want to die. Help me