I want to commit suicide.

I had double eyelid surgery three months ago. I always had a complex about Mongolian wrinkles and droopy eyelids. In my opinion, I wanted to remove only the Mongolian wrinkles and only the saggy skin. Then, scars would remain, and there were not many cases like that, so I did double eyelids. I was prepared to be laughed at, but even after three months, I feel awkward. Even strangers stare at me when I pass by... Guys at school are giggling at me. I want to kill them all. The surgery was clumsy, so it seems like the fat removal on one side didn't work properly ... Before I did it, I heard people say that I had a cute face, but now it's so awkward that only my eyes are wide open, and my face looks so big... It's so ugly . is not a joke Can't this be restored? I heard that it should n't be done with an incisional method. Does anyone know how to get it back?