I don't want to live. Please help me...

I am a man in my early twenties living in Gwangju. I usually have a manly personality and a very manly appearance .. So, perhaps, my relationship with my friends was always good , and I was not popular with my girlfriends, but I was satisfied with it. Of course, I also had a girlfriend... But as I got older, my eyes started to droop . It was a complex and my nickname was ..eagle -eyed ... Then I listened to my sister's recommendation, and I had double eyelids and an incised eyelid. By the burial method... But somehow, within three months or two, my eyes came loose . I thought there was nothing I could do , but the scar on my front slit left a sharp and horrendous look as if it had been cut with a knife . He laughed at what kind of double eyelids he had, and ended up contacting each one of them.. I literally became alone. After that, I spent a year alone in the room drinking for a year, and then my parents gave me a re-operation to see if I felt sorry for him. Others seem to be talking about it because it is scary and painful . I shed only tears...Unfortunately, the hospital where the reoperation was performed was the same hospital where the first operation was performed . Bringing it . _ _ I want to go to the local supermarket, I can’t even go to the local supermarket after surgery. Everything that sees me makes fun of me and looks like an animal… I want to get my eyes back that took everything away. Please let me know if there is a good hospital in Gwangju or other areas. ... thanks for reading this long post...