A review from a very timid person...OTL

I had an incision and epicanthoplasty . I was very scared. I was nervous ever since I got my buttocks injection before the surgery . Looking at some people's posts... "I was very scared, but it was worth it ." I saw a lot of posts like this, so I felt a little relieved . ..But when I entered the operating room, I started shaking a little and heard the doctor's footsteps, and I was shaking like crazy. The anesthetic injection was like an antibiotic injection in the buttocks... It hurt so much that I died... I had folliculitis and had pus drained, but it was worse than that. It hurt, and now that I think about it, it was less painful than the laser treatment at the dermatologist . But I could have just passed the injection... ( because it was a very short pain...) I was so scared that I had to cut myself... It was hell. It was n't the pain... I went to the beauty salon. You cut hair in...;; Because that's how you cut flesh;;; It gave me goosebumps. It was a mental pain that only those who have experienced it know... When losing fat... It wasn't like my eyeballs falling out, but it felt like something very heavy was being taken out... Honestly, this was bearable. When I stopped the bleeding... It was like a crackling flame. I was doing something like ???, but the part that was slightly under anesthesia did sting a bit. I think the thing that hurt the most was when I twisted the last thread. It was the last time, so the anesthesia wore off slightly, so it hurt the most.. piercing the thread through the flesh;; (I pressed my index finger really hard with my thumbnail, and if it hurt more than pressing my fingernail, I would say "Ah~" and if it didn't hurt more than that, I would endure it... It didn't hurt too bad, but it was just like getting an ear pierced.) In conclusion, the pain during the surgery is bearable, but the mental pain is. It's so bad... The reason why the mental pain is even bigger is that during the surgery, the doctor kept saying that this was the first time he had eyes like mine... He kept sighing... and saying it was difficult... I felt very hurt... I was scared and it hurt. I was afraid it wouldn't turn out pretty... I felt really bad after it was over;; That's right, I'm thinking about it now... When the fat was removed during the surgery... I guess I blinked because it was so painful... The fat got into my eyeball...;;; The doctor was confused. I still remember doing it...;;;;