I'm feeling suicidal 3 weeks after my nose surgery.

The complex I wanted hasn't been resolved, and my nostrils are more visible than before... I have a bulbous nose and a complete mess. I'm going crazy. Is this really going to get better? My nose looks really big. The doctor told me to wait and see the swelling, but what I saw for 3 weeks was that the swelling just went down like this, so there doesn't seem to be any change in shape, but it's a suicidal angle. I had surgery to rearrange the cartilage at the tip of my nose with silicone, raise my nose, and lower my nose to cover it.