These days, I cry so much....
If I cry, it won't be good for the surgery....
But I still want to take a pretty picture of the memorial tablet, but
is it too much? ㅠㅠ
When I get my paycheck, I was going to get double eyelid surgery as I've always wanted, but I have
to make the last picture pretty.
During the 12 years of school at my parents' house and
the 4 years of college,
I've only been hurt by people.
They didn't even give me a chance to resolve misunderstandings....
The new town in the countryside was even tougher, and
the kids were very stubborn.
Their looks, their studies, everythingㅡ they
just wanted to be the best.
In college, they were also just trying to get grades...
They would criticize my work like it was a people's trial during major classes...
I ran away with all my might and came to Seoul
. I've experienced the social life I thought I'd never be able to experience in my life,
I've left my previous company where I wasn't welcomed,
and I've made a fresh
start. I've gone to all the places I wanted to go.
There are people who are doing well now...
Why did this happen...
Something that I was even a little attached to.
I especially hoped that no one would leave in pain....
It 's my first time going to a funeral in person, and
it's the funeral of someone the same age as me...
But I
feel like no one will come to pay their respects even if I die now, and
I think I'll be buried in the old municipal water purification plant near my parents' house
....
There's a pretty memorial park nearby, but
I don't know if I can go.
I haven't changed my address yet... Where should I hold
the funeral
? There are coworkers and people from the big house in Seoul,
and there are family and maternal relatives at my parents' house, so
there won't be any friends in the neighborhood....
And I don't think a lot of condolence money will come.
님
[성형수다] 
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