If you ask me
what I
regret the most in my life, it would be
my nose job
. I thought it was the best choice I made for the year when I didn't have any side effects from the nose job, and I felt good because I looked pretty.
If I had known that inflammation would come like this when I was studying or staying up all night, or when I wasn't feeling well, I
would have just done something like that. Why did I really get my nose done? It
only gets better
after taking antibiotics, but
I'm anxious and stressed out because I don't know when it will come back, and it's so frustrating that my nose will go back to being uglier than it was before. Seriously...
When inflammation starts, I can't even rub my nose. When
I see my friends using their noses however they want,
I feel so jealous.
My skin is especially thin, so
I don't know why I got the nose job and it made it thicker, but
I thought that it wouldn't be my story
. I'm realizing again
that just because there are no side effects for two years doesn't mean there won't be any tomorrow.
Even if it's okay for 10 years, I'm worried that I'll have side effects in the 11th year. I
'm unlucky and I don't have money or time
. If I didn't have a mom and dad to comfort
me , I would be really emotionally miserable.
I'm writing this because I wanted to get rid
of it when I was young, when
my mom and dad took care of me and I have money and am still young
. It's really sad ㅠ… ..
When you're young, everyone tells you to just take the inflammation away with medicine and live a little prettier, but I can't make a pretty face.
It feels like I'm living with a mental illness. It's
uncomfortable,
I feel bad,
and I don't know why I'm so sensitive
. Seriously, right now is the time when I should be studying, so as soon as
I'm done studying, I should get rid of it..