I have had nose surgery five times in five years. I envy people who haven't had nose surgery.

hi. (I’m told to use informal language, but will I get used to it later?)

 I thought it would be prettier if I just raised my nose a little, so I went for a non-serious surgery, but it got inflamed, so I had to re-operate after removing the mesh a few months later, and it got inflamed again, resulting in necrosis of the skin on the bridge of my nose and nasolabial fold. Excluding silicone, I had four surgeries at one hospital in two years after skin grafting.

The skin around the columella at the tip of my nose is getting shriveled, the skin graft has caved in, it's become like a saddle nose, and I can't even walk around without a mask. I don't think I've ever seen anyone with a nose worse than mine.

 Now that there is a no-mask atmosphere, I was so worried that I wanted to give up all my greed and correct as much as possible, so I went to more than 10 consultations, but most of the directors changed their expressions as soon as they saw it and told me to just live with it because it would be dangerous to touch it any more. Let's try it in three places.

After worrying about it for two months, it has been a little over a month since I underwent reoperation using two autologous ribs. I still feel anxious every day. Of course, the skin graft scar on the bridge of the nose remains the same. I wonder if the day will come when I will feel safe.

If people around me make noise, I want to stop them. 
I think even if 999 people succeed, there might be one person like me who fails.

I will support those who have already made up their minds.
For those who are worried, think about it some more. 

After writing this, I wonder what qualifications I have to write something like this.
But I think any ugly mother's nose will be more natural, healthy, and prettier than my current nose.