My previous post rose to #1 on the trending list, and it gave me a lot to think about. There was a lot of realistic advice, a lot of warm consolation, and a lot of sharp advice that helped me come to my senses. First of all, thank you so much everyone!!
I want to live hard. I'm doing everything I can to be unfilial. I want to be filial to my parents even now. There were a lot of posts telling me to prepare again for college, but now I don't have the confidence to study for the college entrance exam again and compete with my active-duty friends, so I'm going to start working again!! While working, I will work hard to get a college degree by going to a college or a Korea Communications University, and work hard to get certifications to increase my worth. I will join a good company and work hard to save up money to have another surgery, or I will live like this and improve my mind better, or I will go to a psychiatrist!
I made up my mind, but at night I was still depressed, didn't want to live, and was scared. Still, even though I change my mind thousands of times, I'm still trying to move forward. I will try my best to live my life while reading the comments posted by celebrities. I really resent myself for being so immature, but even if I regret it now, it won’t change anything!!!
I will think of this as an experience and that this experience will be a stepping stone to becoming a great me in the future. I hope that in the future, I will look at myself now and smile and say, ‘I can’t believe I wanted to die because of something so trivial.’ ㅣ
Thank you for reading this long article. I will take all the advice above to heart and remember it for the rest of my life!