People who want to commit suicide because their nose is completely ruined after rhinoplasty

My functional nose was completely destroyed by my nasal septum, my nasal tip cartilage
 was completely destroyed, and my nasal septum and columella were cruelly extended with my own rib cage to create a hard witch nose, so I had two reoperations to remove and reconstruct it, but my nose is noticeably smaller and uglier than my original nose... My
 ears are also ruined, my nose is shaped like a b*tch, and its function is also a b*tch, hard, and my nasal congestion is getting worse...
 I've lost all my motivation due to social phobia, so I'm just enduring each day with depression and panic disorder... My
 psychology is getting worse, so my health is getting worse, and I wonder what's the point of living the rest of my life like this... I think
 I've reached the limit of relying on and relying on my friends, so I think I should stop before we grow further apart, but I have no one to talk to...
 Is there anyone with a similar case of depression that I can contact and overcome it with?
 I really need some sympathy...