My boyfriend really likes pretty women.

My boyfriend follows pretty girls on Instagram and I feel very anxious and sad. Of course, I'm just looking at the picture, but my face shape is uneven, I have severe acne scars that even men wouldn't have, I'm still stressed out from having to cover up my skin with foundation due to adult acne, I'm already 34 years old, and my once straight nose looks puffy, and I've been posting a lot on Instagram. Of course, I can't be compared to young, pretty girls... These days, rather than studying or working, I look at the girls my boyfriend follows on Instagram and look at pretty girls. If I were that pretty, that guy wouldn't give a damn. Why doesn't he know how I feel? I wonder if they give it to me... That friend openly said that it doesn't matter as long as a woman is pretty... I have things to do, but I'm always looking at information about plastic surgery and pictures of pretty women, and I'm seriously contemplating whether I should get plastic surgery too. However, looking at people who failed as well as successful cases, I don't have the courage to think that if I mess up, I'll never be able to see my boyfriend again. I'm thinking about nose contouring and a face lift... I'm thinking about contouring and a face lift. My cheeks are already saggy due to enlarged pores due to acne and I have nasolabial folds. Should I really shave my bones? The sagging cheeks have gotten worse and I'm still worried about aging... So is a lift better? But where and how do I get information about surgery? You made up your mind because you thought this was the place, but do you really have the courage to take on the challenge? My friends and family tell me that my boyfriend is not even human and that I should just break up and not suffer for the rest of my life.. That's true. It's because I don't feel like it... I really want to become pretty. Even though I'm in my 30's... I have to get married... I'm depressed... I want to become pretty even if it's because I want to get revenge on my boyfriend. Please give me courage.. Where, how, and how hard can I work so that I can reach the sky and become pretty and confident.