I want to stop living with rhinoplasty

Now, several years later, I am so disgusted with the fact that I had rhinoplasty and feel ashamed of myself. I feel a lot of shame at the fact that I had to undergo surgery like this even though my face wasn't terribly ugly. I am very resentful of myself for thinking too complacent and not worrying too much because I had surgery without implants and the place had good reviews...
 
I have trouble breathing due to functional rhinoplasty. I'm happiest when I'm sleeping and dreaming because I'm living with a very stinging, dry, clogged breath, as if I were experiencing a chemical or biological room... People who don't understand me often say that they can mentally solve it on their own, but I can't say that it hurts easily because it's a result of rhinoplasty. I went to several hospitals to get it fixed, but they couldn't find the cause and said the inside of my nose was already damaged a lot. That's why you can't do it again. Opening the nose itself is a huge risk because it is accompanied by scarring, destruction of the mucous membrane, and decreased blood vessels in the nose.
 
The first surgery was a non-implantable one, but I think rhinoplasty itself is just dangerous. In rhinoplasty, an incision is made on the side of the columella, the skin is turned over, a lot of cartilage is removed, and the opening of the nose itself has many effects, such as scarring and blood vessels in the skin. Anyone who has seen even one rhinoplasty video on YouTube will understand that what I am saying is not an exaggeration. Don't forget that it is obvious that your nose is the healthiest before surgery, so please be very careful about nose surgery ㅜㅜI just gave up on this life... I'm just thinking about making money and committing euthanasia. Suicide is the only thing that makes me happy. My entire life was ruined by rhinoplasty. In conclusion, I wanted to convey the message that your current mother's nose is the healthiest and most self-harmonized one...
 

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