(I've lived in the US for a long time, so there may be a lot of spelling mistakes, so please understand ㅠㅠ)
A year ago, I was a complete mess. Due to depression + bulimia, I was 64kg (height 167), sunken eyes, wide nose + hooked beak... you get the idea, right? Haha,
I was so disgusted with myself at this time that I didn't even wear makeup and only wore boxy clothes that could cover up my big body. It was to the point where no one recognized me as a woman.. But I studied hard and went to college, and after graduating from high school, I decided to change my life.
I lost weight slowly over the course of a year. I lost as much as I could before plastic surgery, and after that, I lost up to 44 kilos. As it dried, my mood changed completely.
I had plastic surgery done on my eyes, nose, and chin with Botox and did a lot of skin whitening. After the swelling went down, I felt like a different person. There are times when I don't recognize people I haven't seen in a long time.
Seeing my changed appearance has made it fun to decorate myself, so I've learned how to apply makeup to fit my new face and had fun buying clothes.
So how has your life changed??
The best thing is that your self-esteem goes up. Because I'm not embarrassed of myself, I want to find more things to do and work harder. Lethargy, depression, and bulimia disappear. Every day, instead of being told that I gained weight, I was told that I was pretty, that I was thin, and that I was good at taking care of myself, so I started to believe it and kept working hard.
Maybe I'm mistaken, but overall, people are good at it. I live in the United States, and small talk is the culture there. There are a lot of people talking to me. Before it was just “Hi, how are you?” but now it’s like “Hello beautiful/darling/gorgeous”. If you go to a nail salon or beauty salon, you can get services or discounts. Do you feel like there are more good people in the world? My family used to nag me, but now they take great care of me. It's much easier to make friends, and even people I've met seem to remember me more. I always
said hello first, but before, men didn't bother me at all. It doesn't mean much, but now it's very confusing. Some people ask me to introduce myself through friends, and some people approach me on the street. Not all men, but I feel better and my self-esteem increases. I also got my first boyfriend haha.
There are more, but overall, I think myself has become more important. Of course, it may be a mistake, but since my appearance and mentality have changed, it really feels like I am living a new life. When I think of my past self, I feel a little sad ㅠㅠ
*Edit: It's not all that good ㅠㅠ I'm scared of going back to the way I was, so I'm obsessed with my appearance, and now I'm in the early stages of anorexia instead of bulimia. But I have no regrets! I have to keep working harder on the inside, but at least the way I am treated in society has improved incomparably.
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