Incised double-handed first eye makeup for a month and a half without makeup

Why am I so bad at putting on makeup? Haha,
 it would be nice if someone told me about makeup ㅠㅠ
 I heard that it is better to apply makeup after a month, so I
 held on and put on my first eye makeup after twin
 eyes. I filled in the mucous membrane, removed a little of the tail,
 slightly corrected the eyes with a point shadow, and
 tried mascara with an eyelash curler.
 Even if I only filled in the mucous membrane, the swelling looked less. Yes
 , I want to put on makeup to make me look soft, but
 when I put on makeup, I look more like a fox statue (I was originally a fox statue...), so
 I want to learn how to apply soft makeup.