I don't know if this is just me who is stressed.
My mom has been constantly criticizing my body. Ever
since my first year of high school, when I was just getting used to dressing up, I've been told that I'm cute and pretty.
I don't have any weird features like my body or face size, so I've never heard criticism from others.
He wasn't unpopular. Aside from being rational, he was also friendly to same-sex friends and had an outgoing personality with no angular personality.
But since my mom was a freshman in high school, she is now in her late twenties haha..ing has been criticizing my face and body.
For reference, my mom is 163cm tall and weighs almost 80kg... haha...
But I am 168cm tall and weigh a lot. I used to go back and forth between 53 and 60 with a rubber band, but
now I honestly admit that I gained weight.
But when she's about 55 kilos...is she really normal weight...?
‘Do you think you’re a little fat? 'The clothes are tight' 'Look at these arm fat...' 'Your face looks broad' 'One side of your face is big' 'How swollen is your face today?' I keep making superficial comments or body evaluations such as ‘How small are your eyes?’, and
even today, while looking at four pictures taken with my boyfriend, I say, ‘I think your face is bigger, so your face is the same size~’, even
when a close friend is next to me (friends are a bit extreme). (I have a friend with a very small face) ‘My friend has a very small face, so your face looks too big~’ This is everyday life.
But I always feel bad so I tell her not to do that. I told my mom I gained weight and my face looks big. I asked if it made me feel good,
so I forced myself to say I was sorry, and that was only for a moment. Later, I went back to reviewing my face/body. It's been over 10 years.
For your information, I have decent proportions. I'm tall, so I don't really look that bad...
The reason I'm writing this today is because of my boyfriend. I was told for the 3rd time that my face looked bigger when I took pictures from the side,
and I was told more than 3 times that my nose had not changed even though I had nose surgery!!!!!! I'm just saying this because
even after getting nose surgery, my friends and boyfriend all got nose jobs, so I looked prettier! Even I said that
!!!! I think it's changed quite a bit, but
my mom keeps saying it's the same as before every time I look at my nose, lol... To be honest, I'm annoyed and angry.
I have a boyfriend in the past who I dated for a long time, in his early to mid-20s, and he said, 'Is your mother jealous of your youth and beauty? '
To be honest, at the time, I thought that was some bullshit, but
is it really like that because my mom always does this? I want to know that
my face and body are ultimately a mixture of my mother's genes, but I feel like evaluating my child's face and body is ultimately criticizing myself, so I get even more angry and honestly upset. Do
I really need to hear things from my mother that I have never heard from others or friends? It's normal
for parents to tell their children that they are pretty no matter how ugly their faces are,
but my mom always criticizes my face...lol I wonder if this is really true. I can count the times I've heard my
mom say I have a pretty face on one of my three fingers. .Really haha...
I'm getting married next year anyway, so I wonder if becoming independent quickly is the answer.
I can't forgive myself for lowering my self-esteem because of my mother.
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