I'm double-wielding my eyes... I feel like I'm really screwed, so I guess I'll have to retake the exam, right?

I've been sick for 4 months and I'm really going crazy.
 It’s been 4 months since partial incision + incision eyelid + anterior upper epicanthoplasty.
 I don’t think it will go down any further..?
 It's so different from the past,
 my eyes are on the small side, but
 I've heard that she's peerless and attractive. Is her
 
epicanthoplasty natural? No, my impression has changed sharply and I'm wondering, "
 What are you doing if you're conservative?" My eyes are just like sausages compared to mine
 (they look even more like sausages when I look at them from below)
 and my eyes look smaller, closer together, narrower and blocked, so
 
I can't figure out how to fix my eyes with my ruined double eyelids.
 Is there any way to improve my eyes?
 
I did it by choice, but for some reason I hate myself so much
 that I don't even want to take pictures and
 I look so ugly. I wonder if I'm a look-obsessed person and
 I shouldn't be two-faced ㅠㅠㅠ
 Even if it seems like I look young (elementary school), I keep crying that I should live the way
 I want even if I'm blinded
. After coming to Jeong Byeong for a while, I came to my senses and found Jeong Byeong again... Like I said, it's okay to focus on other things. I'm going to lose, but as I live day by day, I keep seeing my face and it's driving me crazy because I'm recognized ㅠㅠ