It's been over a year since I had my first surgery with silicone nasal septum and ear cartilage on the bridge of my nose.
Now the silicone is lopsided and my nose looks crooked.
And when I exercise or lie down, I feel the silicone insert being pressed and I have to be careful not to hit the tip of my nose.
I'm just so stressed out that I want to go back to my original nose, so I removed the whole thing. I'm trying to figure it out
, but I keep thinking, what if I remove the whole thing and it becomes even more ruined than it is now?
Actually, there's no problem with my nose function. So, if you tell me to somehow survive with this nose, I think I can survive.
But now, I purposely wear thick glasses to cover my nose, and
when I meet other people, I don't want to see my nose and think it's strange, so I don't want to meet them.
So it's really hard, but if I go to the hospital again and get counseling, I wonder if I should just live like this. I'm afraid I'll have to have surgery again and end up worse than I am now. It costs too much money and I argue with my parents all the time because of this, and it's really hard.