The obsession with appearance has been severe since middle school, and
I think the biggest
reasons were 1. Comparing boys to pretty ones
2. Hearing me say I'm ugly a few times in passing
. Then, as I became an adult and got double eyelids and fillers, I got a boyfriend and was told I was pretty. I couldn't escape that love
.
I wanted to be the prettiest
in the group. Even though I was told I was the prettiest at work, I was never satisfied. On ugly days, I cried and kept looking at the mini mirror. For
this reason, I went to a psychiatrist and took medication, but it didn't help. I even outlined it hahaha.
I can't love the ugly me and only like the pretty me
. I'm scared that I'll be like this even when I become a grandmother...
I want to change things up a bit, but it seems like it's even worse because when I talk to men even a little, the topic of 'pretty women' always comes up...
Even my lover was passing by . If there's a pretty girl, they look at her and say she's really pretty (but they say this is the same thing they say to a celebrity, so I have nothing to say, because I also like good-looking celebrities...) But when I hear that, I compare my face to that person's face, use a plastic surgery app, and cry... I think it's serious. ..
Will everyone fix their compulsion..? Try explaining it here. No one understands it.
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