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I wasn't pretty until my teenage years... I ruined my life by standing in front of the mirror for too long.

물괴 2019-04-08 (월) 04:14 5 Years ago 5517
I haven't read the book about standing in front of the mirror for too long,
 but it sounds like my story....
 
However, if someone who is sensitive about their appearance like me
 had at least this kind of appearance until their teenage years....
 I wouldn't have spent my childhood and teenage years, when I was studying and building my personality,
 obsessed with my appearance....
 I am a woman who finally became human
 

after finishing the college entrance exam and
 going on a major appearance upgrade diet, double jaw surgery, and orthodontic treatment
 . Now, if I just get double eyelid surgery,
 my appearance will be complete. People around me say that too.
 I am very interested in my appearance,
 but I am sad because I can't dress up like I do on Instagram
 because of my double eyelid eyes
 . Actually, there is a bigger problem...
 I don't think I was human
 until I finished the college entrance exam, or before I got double jaw
 surgery. If you've seen Let Me In, you'll know.
 Those who are planning to get double jaw surgery or have had double jaw surgery,
 you must have lived in so much pain...
 I wasn't good enough to be on that program,
 but you know... If your teeth are even a little crooked,
 it can have a huge impact on your impression.
 Even if companies
 forgive a square jaw or a protruding front tooth,
 they probably don't like teeth that are noticeably crooked...
 When my permanent teeth came in,
 my front front canines grew in crookedly.
 That's how I knew
 my teeth grew in
 . When my relatives and adults around me
 compared me to my younger brother who grew up normally...
 I hated my parents for not getting me corrected early.
 In the end, I was grateful that they paid a lot of money for double jaw surgery, but...
 It's like trying to stop a problem with a hoe...
 I'm the one who caused all the scars.
 On top of that, I was chubby because I had a big appetite
 . If a 6th grader had weighed in the early 60s, that would say everything.
 Now, I've gained all the weight I gained back then,
 but no matter how much I gained, I've never weighed more than 53 kg for years (I'm 168 cm tall)
 , but it wasn't
 like that when I was young... I heard that skinny kids were pretty even back then...
 But why did I gain weight back then?ㅠㅠ
 Even though I lost weight and won a lottery ticket,
 my chest and hips didn't change,
 so it was like I hit the jackpot...
 But I was going to lose it all after the CSAT anyway
 . In middle school, I
 went on a clumsy diet, so I developed a dieting obsession and an eating disorder.
 I had stomach cramps, and my school uniform skirt was so uncomfortable that I couldn't concentrate on my studies
 . (Even now, if I eat too much, my stomach gets uncomfortable. I think my stomach is small.)
 I was sleepy all day long, no matter
 how much I slept, like narcolepsy
 ... Since my teeth completely disappeared after I got braces and went to college, I think
 it might have been because of the gap-shaped teeth...ㅠㅠ In the end, was it
 the CSAT? College entrance exam?
 Of course , I had friction with my parents about my career
 path because I preferred an unusual major
 (a major that is only offered at the Kooksung Sedan Gwangmyeong Sangga and the Arts College),
 but I couldn't focus on my studies...
 I just came here because the college near my house had that major
 . Even though I was the top student in my freshman year, no one recognized me...
 There was some friction at the college because of my major preference, and
 I received several awards and achieved some results in my practical work...
 but I have so much impotence that I can't do anything
 since I'm in the final stage
 .ㅠㅠ It was so hard for
 me to choose this major in
 my teens... It's just like the SES running song
 , a never-ending race... It's boring and hard, and I'm out of breath
 right now, but I'm tall and have a body that men would like,
 and I've heard a lot of people say that I look like a celebrity...
 I've also heard that I'm elegantly
 pretty. Anyway, people who like that kind of thing have pretty looks.
 There were quite a few men, and recently
 I've been actively connecting with prestigious science and engineering universities in our area...
 Well, I think I passed the preliminary round, but what's the Is it a problem....
 If only my eyes weren't so clear and I was prettier,
 it wouldn't have ended like that....
 We were going to go see the cherry blossoms this time,
 but I'm crying because we got canceled right before the peak seasonㅠㅠ
 The relationship ended like that, so
 I was upset and had a fight with my parents...
 When they talked about how to make a living, I got even angrier and more upset...
 I worked as a freelancer related to my major for a while and
 I had no experience, but I once got paid 100 for a project.
 Maybe it's because the minimum wage has gone up these days...


































There aren't many jobs ㅠㅠ Even if there are, the salary isn't that great, and
 in fact, the concept of a freelancer is unfamiliar to
 
people from my parents' generation or those born in the 80s who are older than me
 ... I understand that, but... ㅠㅠ
 I'm feeling depressed just thinking about failing my college entrance exam.
 When I look at Instagram, people who graduated from similar schools as me
 are all working at some company, and
 I think it must be because they look better than me....
 Now, all I need to do is get eye surgery, but
 I can't even get the money for it...
 Actually, I earned some money when I took a leave of absence from school and worked part
 -time, but I was dating a boyfriend at the time, so I spent it all up ㅠㅠ
 I have someone who plans to go see cherry blossoms again,
 but I keep thinking about past relationships,
 so it's such a sad night.
 I posted on another girl group app, but
 they said I have a bad personality ㅠㅠ
 Of course, I also became sharp because
 they didn't support me
 .... I just wish someone could comfort me
 . My parents don't know that I'm in this much pain....
 I'm crying sadly
 like in the old videos of the Let Me In applicants
 ㅠㅠ I was planning to die
 before I turned 30 anyway
 .... If I hadn't done the double jaw diet or anything,
 I would have I would have ended my life before I reached my mid-20s. I'm thinking of
 living like this and just dying, but
 I don't want to leave a memorial photo like this...
 But I wonder if I should live onㅠㅠ
 When I look at Instagram, everyone is smiling because it's spring,
 but why am I so sad?

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따따루 5 Years ago 5 Years ago Address
그나저나 여기 핫플레이스네여ㅋㅋㅋㅋㄱ이렇게 어그로끈담에 포인트벌어서 수술비 보태는것도 방법이네여 참고로 위로해드리는거에여
마르코마린 5 Years ago 5 Years ago Address
컴플렉스가 심해지고 특정한 어떤것에 집착하게되면 스스로도 무너지는것 같아요. 마음의 여유와 자신감을 찾았길 바래봅니다.
콧볼츅쇼 3 Years ago 3 Years ago Address
2년전 글인데 마음이 너무 아프네요
저도 비슷한 상황인데 부정적으로 생각하면 한도 끝도 없더라구요
성형부작용은 아니어서 다행이에요
수술 잘 되셨길 바라요
내 가치는 내가 알고 내 잠재력은 내가 믿는 수밖에 없더라구요
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