Even revision eye surgery and early correction were ruined.

This year was the most important year, so I had a second eye surgery 8 years ago at another hospital due to a buried double eyelid, and it was even more ruined... My eyes have caused me to develop social phobia, so I can't go out. School starts tomorrow, and I want to die... Go to the hospital and get a refund. I want to have the surgery again as soon as possible, but this time I saved money on installments, so I don't have any money, and it would cost twice as much to open my eyes twice. What should I really do? I think it would be better to have
 eye surgery and go to school with swollen eyes than to go to school in this condition. .. I'm going to see the doctor again next month, but I can't do my daily life properly because of my eyes and it's so uncomfortable. Should I ask for a refund so I can have the surgery again as soon as possible? Or should I go to a mental hospital, get counseling, get medicine, and ask for a prescription?