There are times when I'm satisfied with
the photos taken by others,
but other times, I'm like, 'Oh, I'm so unfamiliar' and I just want to go out and die. Anyway,
each photo looks different, sometimes it comes out pretty and sometimes it comes out ugly. When
I see an ugly photo, it's psychologically shocking for a while. Since I'm so big,
whenever someone else takes a picture for me,
my heart starts pounding a little when I check to see
if the photo came out ugly
, and I can't take the picture unless I'm really dressed up and in full costume.
I've heard that the picture taken by someone else = my actual appearance as seen by other people... so
I couldn't take a picture. When it comes out, I want to die... I want to get plastic surgery.
On the other hand, when it comes out pretty, I feel really happy, I keep seeing it,
I love myself, and my boyfriend is so blessed ㅇㅈㄹ;;
I feel proud when I see kids like me all turning out well in photos, but
I 'm so jealous because I think that
pretty and good-looking people
will come out in a good mood and
feel good no matter how they take photos. I hate myself for being nervous every time I take a photo, and
I'm jealous of pretty girls who look good even when they're not nervous.