How happy are pretty and handsome people to be photographed?

There are times when I'm satisfied with
 
the photos taken by others,
 but other times, I'm like, 'Oh, I'm so unfamiliar' and I just want to go out and die. Anyway,
 each photo looks different, sometimes it comes out pretty and sometimes it comes out ugly. When
 
I see an ugly photo, it's psychologically shocking for a while. Since I'm so big,
 
whenever someone else takes a picture for me,
 
my heart starts pounding a little when I check to see
 if the photo came out ugly
, and I can't take the picture unless I'm really dressed up and in full costume.
 
I've heard that the picture taken by someone else = my actual appearance as seen by other people... so
 
I couldn't take a picture. When it comes out, I want to die... I want to get plastic surgery.
 On the other hand, when it comes out pretty, I feel really happy, I keep seeing it,
 I love myself, and my boyfriend is so blessed ㅇㅈㄹ;;
 
I feel proud when I see kids like me all turning out well in photos, but
 I 'm so jealous because I think that
 
pretty and good-looking people
 will come out in a good mood and
 feel good no matter how they take photos. I hate myself for being nervous every time I take a photo, and
 I'm jealous of pretty girls who look good even when they're not nervous.