I went to get fat grafting and eye surgery,
but the hospital was a bit famous, so I paid comfortably, stayed in the recovery room, and then went for a consultation. He was friendly, but other than looking in a hurry, like someone who was pressed for time, it was okay. After waiting for a while, I went into the operating room, and because the fat harvesting area was my thighs, they made my panties into a T shape and fastened them. It was my first time and it was in front of people who were meeting me for the first time, so I was very embarrassed because they made me a T shape without saying anything. The door was open and it was so shameful. Then, I was put under anesthesia to start the surgery, but after some time, the nurse woke me up. He said he wasn't breathing and that it was dangerous because he couldn't proceed with the surgery. He asked me if I had apnea, but I was dumbfounded. I was scared too, but what was even scarier was that the surgery had to be done while I was awake. It was really scary, with the sound of flesh being cut, the sound of pain, and the feeling of blood flowing. It was the first surgery I've ever had that was so scary. The director, whose face was sore, took a deep breath and said, "Why, it's done in an hour, just the fat grafting takes an hour haha~~~" I heard this exactly, and at that moment, I wondered if I should be sorry. Even though it was being done with local anesthesia, the effects of the anesthesia still lingered, but I was feeling very sleepy. But I felt like I would never wake up if I went to sleep now, so I gritted my teeth and held on. Anyway, I was really nervous and scared, like a pig in a slaughterhouse, but the surgery went well. The director was probably busy getting off work, so he didn't even come to check on my condition while I was resting in the recovery room. You usually come in once and check the condition. Ugh ㅜㅜㅜ
I cried alone in the recovery room, saying, “I’m really still alive. I shouldn’t have surgery again.” It may not be a big deal, but... the
combination of cold eyes + scary sounds + the nurse's words that it was almost dangerous because he wasn't breathing + the director's sigh was really scary... I think it will remain a trauma for the rest of my life.