I want to die so bad because my dual skills are ruined

Is it non-incision eye correction called epicanthoplasty?
 It's been a month now
 , but I tried to get rid of Mongolian folds by getting epicanthoplasty,
 but my eyes used to have a gentle image, but now I have a fierce look, and
 the lines are too close to the front of my eyes, and
 one side is asymmetrical at the level of the inner pair.
 Maybe it's because the eye correction was non-incision, but my power to open my eyes is still weak
 . I'm dissatisfied because it's too low,
 but the doctor says it can't be released within 2 weeks and that it's dangerous to the tissue if I do it now, so I'll have to wait at least 3 months to release it
 . What should I do?
 It's hard to wait every day
 and I just want to die.
 First of all, my impression has gotten so bad...
 Do I need to have reoperation through an incision?
 They are not even accepting consultations at other hospitals right now. They
 are saying consultations for reoperations will take place in 6 months.