I thought it was a period of recovery after the nose surgery, but I actually suffered from mental illness.

I have had rhinoplasty three times. I
 originally had a snub nose, and the first surgery I did without knowing anything
 went really well,
 so I was doing well, but then my nose got more and more stuffy. But then I found out that my nasal septum was weakened and I had a deviated septum.
 And the second surgery had a big impact on my nose, so I had no choice.
 I did this and the deviated septum was not corrected, but the shape was okay, so I maintained it well for 10 years.
 But at some point, my nose started to look slightly lifted and 
 I couldn't breathe so I couldn't sleep properly. I slept on one side and my shoulder hurt so much that I had to have
 nose surgery. I decided to do it, so I did it in July of this year..
 
At that time, I was obsessed with the idea of ​​having a nose surgery without even looking into it properly, so I looked for reviews on how to make it look pretty, and then I
 went to a place that does both functional and cosmetic nose surgery and got the surgery..
 with autologous ribs and silicone. I kept talking and saying
 that I wanted it to be natural
 ... But after the surgery, I saw that it was too high and like Pinocchio with a witch's nose...
 The problem was that I was so ignorant that I didn't look into it properly,
 but my nose itself was also difficult. My nose was upturned, the
 
bridge of my nose was sagging, and my columella was bad. Moreover,
 it has to have the same function, and since it is my third surgery,
 I should have looked into it carefully,
 but because the doctor performs flashy surgery, which is popular these days,
 my nose has become an odd line...
 The nose is too long, and when viewed from the side,
 the nostrils are too pointed. Nose in the chair...
They say they will do it after 6 months, but
 if you look at the reviews here, all the nose shapes are the same as mine and
 even if it is lowered, it seems like it will still feel the same,
 so I am worried. The bigger problem than that is that I am suffering
 so
much mentally after the nose surgery.
 I'm a person who really likes people and wants to work, but
 at a time when I have to be very busy due to the store opening soon,
 I get so panicked that I'm prescribed medication and taking anti-depressant medication.
 When I wake up in the morning , I feel pounding and
 think about how much better it would be if I didn't wake up like this.
 To the point where I wonder if I've ever been this painful...
 I can't meet anyone and I'm only taking anti-depressant medication.
 My image and face have changed so much that I feel a great sense of loss. I
 wonder if I should have lived without being greedy when I got older.
 I regret the choice I made back then and desperately want my daily life to return.
 I'm praying..
 Starting next week, I have to start decorating the store I signed a contract with, and
 I'm really worried.
 I hope no one has such a difficult time as me.
 And even if there is, let's overcome it.