Depressing nose surgery 6 week review

Seriously.. Today, I asked an acquaintance of mine from a few years ago
 why I got a nose job. She used to be pretty.. and I heard her say that all she could see was her nose. I was so bummed on the way home.
 Last night, I was so stressed out about my nose that I cried.. It's been a week since I got the splint off .
 From the first month onward, I thought that yes, there would be swelling, so I tried not to cry, but I just couldn't hold on anymore.. The swelling went down and I wondered if the tip of my nose had come down, but no. I think it would have to come down for a long time for it to look natural, and realistically, it wouldn't be possible. Haha, my friends all say it's too high, and the tip of the nose is just too high ㅠ The more the swelling goes down, the more pointy it seems, and even if it was a weird, bumpy nose, I just want to go back to that nose, and people only look so pretty with a natural nose.. Natural I'm jealous of your nose. I guess I won't be able to remove the silicone in the 6th week..? It's not the silicone that's the problem, but the tip of the nose. What should I do? Can't I lower it by grinding the donor ribs? ㅠ Right now, I've got some fat on the bridge of my nose. I'm also fat, so I wonder when this will go away, and will it be good if it does? No, if it does come off, I wonder if my nose will look more pointy. It's really so hard ㅠ The mentality I was holding on to once collapsed and I can't control it lol. Why is my nose so long, like it's been pulled out? ㅠ God, I asked you to do my nose, so I made a Pinocchio nose that looks like you're poking everyone with your nose... Haha, my boyfriend comforts me by saying that he has become much more natural than before and that it will be okay in a few months, but I don't get it at all. Haha, I'm serious. Why am I losing my temper even more? I just have no one to talk to and nowhere to complain, so I'm writing this down.. Please, when I look back at this post in a few months, I'll remember what it was like back then and I hope to go down with a pretty nose, but I don't know if that day will come.. It'll be the second month in two weeks, and then. All the major swelling has gone down and the shape has come back haha. I wonder if I'll really be mentally better by then ㅜha