Please read the article just once. It’s a bit long.

Thank you so much to everyone who came in to read. It's going to be a long story, but I'd really appreciate it if you could tell me your thoughts just once!
And let me tell you in advance, I'm sorry that I won't be able to give you hospital information due to personal circumstances!

It's been about a month since I had septum + silicone surgery. I've been taking antibiotics for the redness on the bridge of my nose since a few days ago. The hospital is saying that if it doesn't go away, they'll have to remove the silicone. Actually, this isn't a big problem, but the thing I'm most stressed about
 is About 2 weeks after the surgery, I wonder if the nasal septum in my nose was slightly bent or if the area that was padded during the surgery was swollen. It was still the same, but the column in my nose on the right side protruded and my breathing narrowed, making it difficult to breathe (I saw swelling at the hospital for about 2 weeks). I said, but it seems similar to back then)
 It looks fine on the outside, but I have a functional problem, so the stress is no joke. My nose is also very hard, and every time I go somewhere, I think about the days ahead where I will have to be careful with my nose, so I spend the whole day on my phone and only see side effects. I'm looking at it, paying money, going through a hard time, wasting time, and I'm filled with these thoughts, and I keep blaming myself, but the tears keep falling, and I'm filled with the thought that if I'm going to do this, I shouldn't have done it.
To get to the point, if I remove the silica because it is likely to cause inflammation, the foreign body sensation will be severe, so I want to remove the entire thing. I was worried that my nose would not return to its original state, but I was worried that using a septum would cause my nose to collapse or something like contracture. I'm very concerned about removing the entire nose because of things like it turning into a pig's nose, and I think we all share the same idea that I want to have a human-like nose after removal, even if it's not as good as my mother's nose. However, leaving the tip of my nose alone except for the silicone part doesn't fix the crooked nose. I feel like it's going to keep taking my breath away... So I'm so frustrated. I don't know what the best method is.
 Even if I take medicine now and the inflammation symptoms subside, I plan to have it removed after 6 months. At that time, I'm wondering whether I should get consultation at a place that's good at removing it or have it done at the place where the surgery was performed
 . It was a cute nose, but after thinking about it for several years and making a big decision, I was not happy with the result. Everyone said the surgery went well, and even now, except for the redness, I'm fine. The doctor did a good job on the surgery and took good care of me. I was so upset that I didn't plan on getting a nose job in the future
 . Listen, I've been wanting to get a nose job for years, so I did everything I could with fillers, Hico, Jinju Nose, and Missco. It was a case of saying, 'If this is going to happen, let's get surgery.' I was really worried about my side profile, and there are limits to the procedure, so I thought I'd be really satisfied if I got it done. But after doing it, I ended up having a nose surgery more than I thought. It's too dangerous, I don't know when or what will happen, and I think there may be side effects in places I don't even think about. We have a lot of days ahead of us to even take that into account.
I'm not saying you shouldn't do it unconditionally. I have many friends around me who are satisfied and living well, and there are many people whose lives have changed to be happier after doing it. And on the other hand, I think I'm feeling this way because I'm too sensitive right now. But please think about it one more time and think about it again. I think I need to make up my mind to do it more.
 Thank you so much for reading this long post. Please leave a comment telling me what you think is the best thing to do in my situation. Thank you all so much!