Am I a lookist? ㅠㅠㅠ

I'm a senior
 
in high school and for your information, don't tell me to study instead of taking the CSAT.
 
1. I still wear a mask to school.
 2. I often take pictures of my face with the rear camera and analyze them one by one
 . 3. I write down all the plastic surgery I'll do when I become an adult in a notebook . 4. I imagine what other people will think of my face.
 5. I really hate taking my mask off.
 However, I've improved so much that I've been taking it off since May when I go to the academy (the academy and school are really far apart).
 6. But I had a few nightmares where a kid from my school was at the academy and he laughed at my face like in number 5.
 I've already had a few dermatological procedures like Inmode.
 + 8. I haven't eaten lunch since my first year of high school because I can't take my mask off.
 I don't know when it started, I'm just... curious if it's serious.