Even with plastic surgery, my ugly face makes me want to die.

Before plastic surgery, I was uniquely ugly, but after plastic surgery, I'm as ugly as a monster. Really, I thought I would become prettier after plastic surgery, but I guess it's because I had high expectations, so I'm so disappointed. Even though it was hard, I worked hard at my part-time job for two years and held on with the thought of becoming prettier... but I'm just lost. I lost my money, my face became ugly due to disapproval, and it was very difficult for me. I took a leave of absence from school and cut off all contact with my friends, so I felt like I was left alone. My family is worried because I stay home and cry all the time and use my phone.. Because of my greed, my mom drinks all the time and cries because of me. Every time I see her like that, I have to show her that I can overcome it, but it's so hard to just endure each day.. Before plastic surgery. I want to go back but it's too far