Please read my previous post and this one.
I thought it couldn't go on like this, so I thought I should get deep buccal fat removal surgery and come up with a plan. They told me to come back when I've made up my mind and that they'd do fat grafting. But it was so unfair. My nasolabial folds, which were already bad, were made even deeper, and they made it look like my teeth were protruding even though they weren't, and it became the shape of a monkey's mouth, and my cheeks weren't necessarily turned at a 45 degree angle, but were visible even when looking straight ahead, and needless to say, my cheeks and skin that were once plump have lost their elasticity and have turned into deflated balloons. And after deep buccal fat removal, my cheeks sagged and the flesh drooped down to my chin, making my face a pentagon? Hexagonal face shape. And would fat grafting be the end of it? I can see that it'll get worse and lose elasticity as I age. It was so unfair that I thought I had to go and take some action. And I went and consulted with the doctor, but I only had cosmetic side effects, and it's not like my mouth can't move or I can't eat or anything, but I did have cosmetic side effects, so they kept trying to brainwash me by saying that it's not their fault and that it's much better than before ㅋㅋ My cheekbones aren't that bad, and it was just slightly visible because of my forehead, but I had original cheekbones. And when I told them that my buccal fat was sagging, they said that's absolutely not possible ㅋㅋ Deep buccal fat isn't a surgery that causes sagging. So did my skin suddenly start sagging overnight? ㅋㅋ Did a ghost come and go?
Asymmetry was there originally. No, I know best that asymmetry was there originally. But even without that, the severe asymmetry is made into a real disability, so even if I tell them, they absolutely won't admit it. Who did this with the wrinkles on their nasolabial folds and the uneven cheeks? And why are they telling me that they're going to do liposuction on their chin? So when I said that it would make my face sag, they said that's not true and that it doesn't sag ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ They keep lying at the end of their sentences, I'm really mad and speechless, and when I said that people said I looked old and presbyopic, they said that people suddenly lose weight and that's what they say when they lose weight... No, it felt like I gained weight and became as skinny as a skeleton, so that's why they said that.. They really didn't admit that they did anything wrong. They said that they've had deep cheek fat removal surgery for 10 years and never had a complaint like mine ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ When I heard that, all I could think was that they were shocked ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ I can't even remember how many side effects I've seen from deep cheek fat removal, but I was so angry that they were doing business so shamelessly. I was the one who suffered, but they didn't admit to that damage. There is a victim, but no perpetrator ㅋㅋ They said that I wasn't that bad, why are you deciding that for yourself? And they kept saying things like "look at it objectively." How can plastic surgery be objective? Shouldn't it be viewed subjectively? I really wanted to die, and my expression wasn't good and I was nervous, so if the doctor didn't like it, he said that there was a lawyer from the legal department of our hospital, so he told me to go ahead and do it, lol. But he said that we didn't want to blush and that he told me to talk to the head of the counseling room, so I held back and met the head of the counseling room. He told me that he also got wrinkles on his forehead after getting braces and that he regretted it so much, but what should I do? He said that I should take responsibility for what I've already done. He dissed me, lol. He told me to listen to him, lol. And I felt like all he'd do was curse at me. And he told me that I would have regretted it if I hadn't gotten the surgery, lol. Even if I went on a diet, my body would have bulged like a bulldog and I would have been stressed, lol. He said that I should have done it anyway. And he said that I didn't have to get fat grafting done, but since the director said he'd do it, he'd do it when I wanted to, lol. What the heck is he talking about? And he said that if I didn't like it, he'd give me a refund. And the refund wasn't even 600,000 won (the money I paid initially), so I had to get 400,000 won. They said lol, after deducting the actual cost lol. So I said, "In that case, it's better to get fat grafting" and they said let's write a consent form so I said I'd come next time and write it and came out and cried a lot.. The moment I agreed, I was the only one being treated badly and I'm 24 years old so I was at a loss.. Oh right and they said the reason I'm stressed out isn't because of the buccal fat removal. They said it was bad originally so they're talking like this. Am I an idiot? Doesn't someone who looks in the mirror all the time not know the changes? I was so wronged and suffocated that I couldn't speak.. And I thought there really were such shameless people who told me that if I kept doing lifting management and things like that, I would be fine.. And they said that if I go on a diet, my sagging and saggy face could occur. They clearly told me before I got it that if I went on a diet after getting deep buccal fat removal, there would be a synergistic effect. ㅋㅋ But they said I shouldn't go on a diet now. ㅋㅋㅋ They said I shouldn't get meridians either. They said my face fat could fall out even more.. Is this a joke? The people at that hospital really told me that I was too sensitive. They said that it wasn't because of deep buccal fat removal. They said that my sagging face and saggy face were caused by the deep buccal fat removal. I really wanted to kill them.. Before I went to the hospital, I had given up because time had passed and now I really didn't have any feelings. If the hospital had just understood my feelings and said things that were really good for me, I wouldn't have held a grudge and would have just gotten fat grafting once and, as time passed, gone to another place that was good at it and spent the rest of my life getting fat grafting, lifting, and so on. I thought I had to live, but when it came out like that, I really wanted to die. It felt like my world was collapsing. I knew I would lose if I took it to court anyway. There would only be cosmetic side effects. But the moment I felt that they didn't understand my patients' feelings like that, I really broke down. I really want to die. I wish I could just sleep without opening my eyes and disappear for the rest of my life. I start the day with self-reproach and end it with self-reproach. My self-esteem has already hit rock bottom, I don't have even 0.1% of motivation and passion, and I don't want to travel, meet people, go shopping, or do any of those things in my life... I really feel like I have to die to end this pain. Is it possible to live like this for the rest of my life..? I don't want to get fat grafting there, and I don't want to get a refund, but I'm in a dilemma of what to do.