Hello, everyone... I'm 21 years old and a woman who wants to be ordinary... I'm not good at writing reviews, so
please understand if you feel uncomfortable while reading...
It's been about 3 years since the coronavirus outbreak, right..? I've had Corona since I was in the 5th grade of elementary school.. Because from then on, the teasing got so bad that I had to wear a mask.. My nickname was chin-pi. It's an abbreviation for chin-ju-ga-ri-pi-kku. Of course, I didn't have any friends... I started living a life of bullying... Even if I didn't do anything wrong, I was bullied, and even if I transferred schools, I was bullied... Even if I go into more detail, it's not a good story... I had a harder life than you can imagine...
My face is, in a word, the worst face shape. Even to me, it looks like a monster, so how much more so to others... My skin is thin, so my facial bones stand out even more, making it the worst face shape... Because I was having such a hard time, when I was 20, my mom suggested that I get contouring surgery first and go for a consultation together, but I was too timid and scared, and I couldn't even think of getting surgery. I couldn't even think of going for a consultation... Because I didn't want to show my ugly face to new people...
I was home alone, looking at people's before and after photos on apps and cafes, and I was jealous...
Then one day, I saw a review of someone similar to me. That person also had a face Her face was asymmetrical, but after contouring surgery, it became almost symmetrical. It wasn't as bad as mine, but you could tell just by looking at her that she also had asymmetrical face. After seeing how it had changed, I thought, "Could my face shape become normal?" I had this hope for a moment and told my mom... Mom, I want to go to this hospital for a consultation. Let's go together... So I went to that hospital for a consultation with my mom.
I had no intention of getting surgery... I just wanted to get a consultation... On the other hand, medical technology has advanced so much, but I was really scared, scared, scared that they might say that my face is inoperable... Even though I had no intention of getting surgery, I really prayed that they wouldn't listen to me... It
was my first time going to a plastic surgery clinic and I was nervous when I got a CT scan... When I was consulting with the director, I couldn't even make eye contact and I could only answer questions. It was
n't because the director was unfriendly, it was just so hard for me to talk to him. It was burdensome...
After the consultation with the director, I moved to the consultation with the director, but the director was a man and too mature for me, and the director, who was also a woman, was also having a hard time.
For a moment, I wanted to run away, and I was nervous and sweaty... On my palm... As
soon as I opened the door, he smiled brightly and called my name, welcoming me.
When he saw my face without a mask, his expression changed. Nothing changed... It was almost the first time someone called my name with a bright smile...
From that moment on, I was a little overwhelmed with emotion. But I held back and started the consultation, and just like when I consulted with the director, I just answered.
The director looked at the CT and my face and gave me a thorough consultation.
Then the director said,
"Ms. ㅇㅇ, you've had a hard time... I couldn't have imagined how you'd feel, but thank you for holding on."
After hearing that, I ended up bursting into tears. And while crying, I told the director,
"Director... I don't need to hear that I'm pretty even once until the day I die. I just
want people to not be startled and embarrassed when they see my face when I take off my mask in front of people...
The hardest time is when I see people's expressions changing for a second or two when they're embarrassed when they see my face. I really want to disappear from this world at that moment.
Please be honest. I have much more asymmetry than the person I saw in the reviews. Can I become ordinary...? I don't need to be pretty, I just want to live a life with an ordinary face shape,,,
I really cried and trembled as I told the director... The director blinked his eyes quickly, and I think he must have kept crying...
My mom was crying next to me, and the director was crying too... I felt so sorry because I felt like I had hurt people again...
"If you look at the CT and the skin texture of Ms. ㅇㅇ, the nerve lines are in good shape and the skin texture is not sagging, so I think the surgery result will be good.
If she gets the surgery from me, I will do everything I can. But
I don't want to force her to get the surgery at our hospital. There are many contouring hospitals. I sincerely hope that Ms. ㅇㅇ will have a successful surgery and smile brightly wherever she gets it.
I will cheer her on from the bottom of my heart."
That's how the consultation ended. Since I rarely meet people and talk, I can still remember everything the director said to me...
After finishing the consultation with the director, I went home and cried in my room because I was happy. The director's consultation was so warm... And I was going to have the surgery. I can't remember anyone speaking so warmly to me...
I told my mom the next day that I was going to have the surgery, and today I went for my 3-month follow-up, and I prepared flowers to express my sincere gratitude to the director.
I was so embarrassed when I gave him the flowers, but I said, "It's the first time I smiled when I looked at my face in the mirror."
The director also said that he was glad that the surgery went well and that he would support me in the future. And I'm writing a review now that I'm home. Since I don't take any selfies, I didn't have any, so I asked the director for before and after photos taken at the hospital. I'm so grateful to the director that I want to do something for him, but when I had the surgery, I paid a little more on the condition of not writing a review. However, it seemed to me that the surgery went well... That's why I
wrote a review in hopes that it might be of some help. I didn't want to write a review, so I paid extra money, but the reason I'm writing a review now is because I think there must be people like me who are having a hard time because of their face shape... I hope you try something... It's easier said than done, and I know it's difficult for us...
But I hope you can muster up the courage and try something like me. Fortunately, the results were good, so I'm living so happily these days. 6:48 PM 2023-01-17 Every time I look in the mirror, I'm amazed and smile, and I'm living each day in disbelief. I'm so proud of myself for deciding to have surgery...
It's so long and you might get bored reading it, but I wrote it
with all my heart, with gratitude, and with courage, for people like me
. If you have any questions, please leave a comment and I will answer to the best of my knowledge.
The surgeries I received were 3 types of contouring + 45 degree wide-body shaving + jaw muscle reduction.
My soul had already been on a time limit since a long time ago, and I have been hurt so much that I have nothing but scars. I sincerely thank the director who brought me out into the bright world and
allowed me to look at my own face and smile. I hope that those who are suffering like me will find the courage to try it.