I've posted this several times. I want to commit suicide. Please help me.
I can't eat or sleep. I want to die.
I've applied for a leave of absence from school.
I want to keep my original double eyelid line as it is
.
I had two incisions and removed the sagging skin in front of my head.
I heard that
the line would be slightly more visible than now.
I went under the knife.
It's been a month and 10 days.
My line is thick
. I had swelling for a month after the surgery, so the line
has come out. It's not uneven, it's not a scar, it's not too high, and there
are no functional problems.
I got the scar injection twice for free and they're giving me two more. Maybe that's why
there's really no swelling.
When I put on makeup, my eyes were long and pretty like a cat's, but
even with light makeup, they were long and my double eyelid line was long, so when I put on makeup, I tried to make them look more natural, but
they were
too round and
kind, and
the harmony was broken.
Especially when I have no makeup. I felt good when I washed my face and looked at it, but now I want to die.
I don't know
what kind of rich and honorable life I wanted
to enjoy, but my eyes are not pretty because they are big, and it's hard to put on the makeup I liked,
and I couldn't sleep and kept looking in the mirror because I kept pulling and rubbing
my
eyelids because they were saggy.
I can't give up on my face. I'm
taking a leave of absence from school and working part-time to save money to restore it
to its original state,
but I don't want
to get an incision, so I'm going to get fat grafting on the eyelids to lower my double eyelid line by at least 1mm and
re-do the double eyelid tip line.
I'll send you a copy of my surgery diary and a photo file this week.
If I get fat grafting on the eyelids, my eyelids will sag a bit and the
line will come out. It'll get worse over time, but I
want to live right now.
I want to end it and do it online.
At the beginning of the procedure,
I thought it turned out really well
because of the swelling, or maybe because of the lines that stretched outward, and my eyes that didn't look round, but
it's even stranger now that the swelling has gone down.
I trusted the person who was capable and got it done, and I thought I would get double eyelid surgery,
but my eyes changed so much that I couldn't sleep. I would really appreciate
any advice or comments based on experience.
It would be so helpful.