I posted this a while ago.. I suddenly got a tsunami of worries and regrets and sighs so I can't stop my
tears I thought it would be okay if I had a nose like this.
But after a month... Why does it get so hard?
The nose is so ugly on my face.. I wasted my time like this..
Now my nose is softer than before.. it sleeps sideways
It moves..I don't know because I haven't tried a pig's nose, but it's moving a little bit, but putting in
a few millimeters of bijou makes it hard to see.. I cry and cry
but there 's no
answer, so I'm going crazy
. They say
that the nose becomes hard after surgery..
I really hate having a hard nose.. My mother urges me not to cut my body
again
. I'm
avoiding all kinds of excuses from telling my friends...
I'm not sure what I'm doing....
I keep having scary thoughts and bad thoughts...
Looking at me like this, my mom is worried that I might need to undergo psychotherapy. Actually, I'm
too scared to see what's going to happen. Do I
really need to go to the hospital
?
This is the real start, but it's so hard...